I have been pensive and fascinated by the twists and turns of life. I am particularly mesmerized by how ‘the universe’ has engaged with me and my life over this waning year. We chat, the universe and me, usually early in the morning when I’m out with the doggies at the park. They’re all off running and I’m striding, wishing I could run with them! That’s when I look around for the ‘all clear’ before I commence my morning conversation with the universe!
I ask, I wonder, I get annoyed and irritated because sometimes I’ve just ‘had enough’, yet more often I express my deep gratitude. The doggies are unfazed by my ramblings because they’re accustomed to this discourse, and quite honestly, I sometimes feel sure that they have an inside track. They remain nonchalant though! I notice, when I curl up with them in the evening, especially the labs, Donna and Diana, they debrief me somehow. We gaze into each other’s eyes, I get myself licked and I stroke the bellies presented to me. My stress drains away, as does my night cream, and we’re all ready to curl up for dreamland.
I do notice though, that when I make an effort, make a choice, take a stand, ‘stick my neck out’, that’s when the universe responds. Yip, it doesn’t respond to my ramblings, sigh. Response only comes when I make an effort, not necessarily knowing what the consequences might be.
There have been some significant and exhausting challenges this year. And because of them and in spite of them, new ‘top of the line’ folks have crossed my path and become friends and allies. We’d never have met had I not been confronted by a less than enviable situation. I’d rather have escaped the situation, and, because of it, I’m more than grateful for the new friends and allies in my life and that of Ukulapha Community Outreach.
Reaching out is a life skill I’m still learning. We’re on friendlier terms at six score years and five, and I must say, recent challenging events and the superb caring and collaborative support I’ve received are turning me into a ‘believer’.
You know, it’s that ‘devil and the deep blue sea’ seeming dead end, longing for, at least, a T junction. Keep calm, breathe, have faith all seem so trite, and along with one step at a time action, you know, the follow the trail, keep looking over the horizon ... and ... there it is, the road leading to the oasis!
Without excellent friends, who could survive?
You know, the ones who stand by with go for it, you can do this! What’s the worst that could happen? And ready to cheer you on no matter what. I have friends like that and I was recently, while in Canada, close to these friends, touched to tears quite regularly because of their love, encouragement and support.
It was a tight fit between that rock and hard place and getting increasingly uncomfortable and painful. Curling up with a slab of chocolate and gazing out the window was so appealing.
But the universe was clear that this didn’t equal a concerted effort! *sigh*
And honestly, once I met with the first two, (And they know who they are) who were to become friends and allies, that led to another friend and ally, a cascade of meetings of allies who I didn’t meet, and an outcome I, and others, had a really hard time imagining. It just seemed too dicey, too much of an impossibility, too unlikely. And literally at the eleventh hour, that very impossibility unfolded! Yes it did!
Did I thank the universe?
You bet I did.
And from the depths of my heart and soul I thanked my new friends and allies, those I met and those I have yet to meet, but played such an integral part behind the scenes.
As I returned to South Africa, my doggies and the park, while they chase through the long grass, I step it out on the path and engage with the universe in awe and with a fresh appreciation.
I acknowledge that reaching out, trusting, having faith in the process of life, actually does provide momentum and collaboration that links up the dots that were just itching and waiting for those connections!
Huge and heartfelt thanks to the universe and my old and new friends and allies.